Earlier today I felt like complete shit. I felt so out of my element and just sad. Theres a number of reasons why that could he but at the time I didn’t know how to get out of that mood and it sucked. And oddly enough now I feel great. I was looking through forest vids and suddenly the euphoria and nostalgia smacked me in the face. I will never forget that place or the happiness it gave me. At electric forest I felt so secure. Nothing could bring me down because I controlled my actions. Whatever I wanted to do I fucking did it. It was the best 21st birthday celebration I could have ever asked for. And then I realized how fucking young I am. And I’m having the time of my life. Im living a dream and exploring my youth more than I ever have before. I want to be able to appreciate my dope ass life like this more often. That was my problem earlier. I felt so disconnected and num to everything. Its such a waste of time to allow myself to feel like that because theres so much to appreciate right now.
Live in the now originated as my youthful party not give a fuck representational tattoo. As i grew older i achieved what i thought it would have meant. I went to college. Anything and everything about those four words should explain what i mean by i achieved what i thought live in the now meant. I went nuts and didn’t give a fuck but in the process i discovered that i don’t live in the now at all. I dwell on the past or at least i use to and i think to much about the future. I learned what if meant to actually live in the now at electric forest. It wasn’t about partying and going hard and being reckless. It was about forgetting about the past negativity and the future stress. Live in the now was about not letting those things change what could happen. Anything could happen and you shouldn’t let yourself ultimately ruin yourself from having a good time and being successful. At the forest I did whatever felt necessary at the moment for the moment. Now i realize that i need to place that way of living in my everyday life but with a twist of responsibility. Achieve whatever it is you want to because at the end of it all all that matters is what you want. Thats whats gonna get you throughout the rest of your life. Living for whats right in front of your face and enjoying every minute of it no matter how the outcome. Truth is i don’t do this every day. And for that i am grateful i have the tattoo. It reminds me everyday that i should be living that way.
- was watching a movie which gave me a new tattoo idea and then i decided to think about the tattoos i already have and the amazing meaning behind them that i sometimes forget about. I am happy right now because i am happy. Thats all that matters.